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It's been a while since I've put something in this thing.   Welcome back to ME!!!

… love is good isn’t it?

Two lovely sonnets… by PABLO NERUDA…

love and life is good… that is all I can say.  Finally, I’m happy.

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Sonnet XCI

Age covers us like drizzle;
time is interminable and sad;
a salt feather touches your face;
a trickle ate through my shirt.

Time does not distinguish between my hands
and a flock of oranges in yours;
with snow and picks life chips away
at your life, which is my life.

My life, which I gave to you, fills
with years like a swelling cluster of fruit.
The grapes will return to the earth.

And even down there time
continues, waiting, raining
on the dust, eager to erase even absence.

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Sonnet XCII

My love, if I die and you don’t -,
My love, if I die and you don’t -,
lets not give grief an even greater field.
No expanse is greater than where we live. 

Dust in the wheat, sand in the deserts,
time, wandering water, the vague wind
swept us on like sailing seeds.
We might not have found one another in time.

This meadow where we find ourselves,
O little infinity! we give it back.
But Love, this love has not ended:

just as it never had a birth, it has
no death: it is like a long river,
only changing lands, and changing lips. 

Living the Good Life!!

I look beyond my window and I see a dewdrop fall down from the leaves to the grass…

It had put a smile on my face as I clear my eyes from my slumber.  I walk down to my window and look further beyond the sill… I see the shadow of the leaves swaying.. projecting their shadow on the grass below.  I open my window and I suddenly fill the chill morning air.. It feels as if it wants to touch me, hug me, and give me some warmth.. my senses become alert.. my lungs are filled with the smell of nature.. the smell of wet grass.

Ahh… the smell of nature… the touch of nature.. the feeling of being in a place wherein everything is simply perfect.  Everything is natural.. no machineries.. no clanking of cars.. no ringing of phones or cellphones.  The good life!

In the past, people never relied on technology.. everything that they had was given to them by nature.  There were no need for any complications.. they wake up… eat.. go to work.. and enjoy the feeling of the breeze.. the smell of grass.. the smell of clean air.  Today, we live in an age of technology, where we would look left and right and see only tall buildings made by man..  wherein people are using cellphones and all we would hear from them would be “What’s your new ringtone?”

Whatever happened to the days wherein people would just stop and watch a sunrise… what happened to waking up to a new day and feeling the breeze on their hair?

Don’t get me wrong… I love technology, I’m a TECH AFFICIONADO.. I love my computer.. I love my cellphone.. however, I am also a nature freak.  I love the feel of the breeze.. the smell of leaves in the morning, the chirping of birds when I wake up.  I would gladly give up all my gadgets to just a simple life in a cabin with plants and trees and animals.

I admit that I have been overwhelmed by technology for the past years.  I have enjoyed every lil bit of it and I still enjoy it now.  However, it has been a while since I’ve communed with nature.  It has been a while since I stopped and smelled the flowers. Lately though, it seems that it’s all coming back.. people usually forget about the simple life… that they are touched more by money and everything that goes with it.  Its true that money makes the world go round.. but it can never really make anyone happy.

I admit that I was blinded by what money can give us.  What power it holds over us is far greater than anyone might imagine.  Unless we break free of it, we will always be a slave to that paper with the faces in front of them. 

I am now trying to live a good life.. a life I know I will enjoy and will cherish.  Let’s not let technology rule over us… let’s just enjoy the simple things in life.

2006!!!

A new year…
A new life…

This has been my saying for the new year…

It’s been complicated last 2005… and the complications are just starting this year too.

I’ve lost a lot… and gained more than I would’ve hoped for.

Starting the new year alone wasn’t so hard since I’ve done it all too many times.  But lately, things aren’t the same.  I’m happy… and at the same time… sad. 

One of my best buddies is leaving to another country… I know she’ll be happy there… she deserves to be happy.  But I will surely miss her.

My family… is as strong as it had ever been.  We’ve a new issue to contend to but I know we’ll work it out and still be happy whether things turn out bad in the end.

My life… well… I’ve been known to bounce back as often as I fall down.. nothing new really.

Throughout all the hardships and the sadness that had plagued me in 2005… I know that 2006 is something to look forward to.  New things have been popping up lately… things that I’ve never thought I would find.  I’ve always thought I’m already grown up… but remembering my past reminds me that I’ve still got a lot of things to change.  I’m happy with what I’ve experienced last 2005 and I had no regrets whatsoever. As for this new year… I’ve a lot to be hopeful for and a lot to look forward to.

Who am I?? I AM ME!!!

In the course of one’s life… we would always get to a point wherein we stumble and just bounce back at the blink of an eye.  There are some who choose a different path… a path that was not expected to be chosen by them.

My life has not been tragic… but I also never led a charmed life…  I’m a normal guy with normal pleasures.  I’ve been down in the dumps.. I’ve been way up high in the sky… and I’ve been thrown to the wolves… But if I think about it… my life is okay.

There are those who are not as lucky as I am… My family may not be as well off as people might think… but we manage with what we have.  I myself am not as well off.. but I’m happy.  Happy because I know I have lived my life in the best possible way and I was given all the love by my parents my brother and my relatives. 

My relationships also weren’t perfect.. but I tried my best to make them so.  Yes… I’ve been hurt.. I’ve had my share of hating my ex’s… but if I look at things.. hating them wouldn’t really have any impact on my life.. I’d just have another extra problem to take care of in the long run. 

Oh well… that’s who I am.. I AM ME!! I don’t care what other people might think… I don’t care if people think that I’m not worth it.. or if they think that I’m a maniac.. maybe in their eyes I am.. but me… I LIVE MY LIFE THE BEST WAY I KNOW HOW TO… and that is to LIVE IT TO THE FULLEST!!!

We all are different.. in our own little ways.  We laugh differently.. we love differently.. nobody is perfect.. if somebody is… he or she would sure be such a boring person. Hehe!! The spice of life.. our problems.. our misgivings.. those are the things which make us who we are.

Life is weird as it is fun… Life is confusing as it is as clear if you simply just look at it and take away all the trimmings. 

Let’s just be who we are… Ü

Hello!!!!

It’s been while since my last entry…

Been too busy with work lately but everything seems to be coming along well at the moment. 

The new account that I’ve been transferred to is way better than the old one.. new people to meet.. new things to do.. it has it’s stress but still… it way easier coz now i was trained to handle the account.. Ahhhh… sweet!

Well.. I still really don’t have much time to spend on my blog… but I’ll probably have a few more things to put here once I settle down with the new account.

My Bestest Friends…

We go through our everyday lives in a heartbeat.  We would sometimes just pass on to the next day without so much of caring for those around us.

We would always see people from all walks of life.. the poor, the sick, the old and the weary.  All of them need a lil’ bit of love.  From the lowliest person to the most respected.  Whether they have been bad or good, they still need a lil’ bit of love.

I had my share of ups and downs… and there were instances wherein I felt that nobody cared.  I felt empty and unfulfilled.  But when the going gets tough… and when I thought that nobody was there for me.. I find out that somebody is. 

I don’t have that many friends that I am close to.  I seldom would share with them the life that I live or ask them for advise.  For the reason that I don’t really trust people all too well.

To point out… Here are the most trusted friends of mine.  These guys have been with me through thick and thin… through most of my ups and downs and know me inside and out. Ü

1.  Armi
     My lil ate.  Why call her that?? Coz she’s an ate and a baby at the same time.  This is one person whom I treasure a lot!  She’s stubborn, she’s sweet, she’s responsible.  One who loves her family so much!  She has her moments and she would always keep me on my toes.  We’ve had our ups and downs… but through it all, she remains as a friend and I will always be there for her.  We really haven’t been long time friends, however, we do act as if we’ve been friends for more than a lifetime.. which by far is a pretty good thing.  She’s the one person who knows almost everything about me. Ü

2.  Cathy
     My ate.. but she calls me kuya. Its a weird relationship between Cat and me.  She’s got a pretty strong personality.  Someone who takes good care of her friends, albeit, sometimes, she goes too far… HAHAHAHA!!! But she does have a lot of good intentions.  We’ve been friends for 4 years already.. she had her moments of getting angry at me.. I’ve had my moments of getting pissed of at her men.. HEHE!! But, lately, I don’t get to talk to her much anymore but we both know that the friendship is there.

These are the peeps whom I know will stick by me through thick or thin.  Whether I’m making the wrong decisions or not, they’ll be by my side to either kick my ass or give me a pat on the back.

I would seldom show my soft side to anyone, let alone have anyone see me angry.  But they have been there, they’ve been patient enough and stuck with me through and through even on my bratty days.

When to quit…

When does it come to a point that a person just has to quit…  When I say quit, I literally mean quit in every sense (be it with a job, a relationship or whatnot).

Each person has different points of view when it comes to quitting.  Some are strong enough that they would endure all manners of headaches and still stay where they are.. there are those who would quit at the first sign of failure.. and there are those that is just too tired to fight anymore and turn and walk away.

How does one know when to quit?

Do we quit because we can’t take it?  Do we quit because people say we should?  Do we quit simply because we are inclined to do so?

Even I don’t know the answer to such a question… everything is dependent on our day to day lives.  Be it a simple decision of what to where to work may change the course of our day from bad to good.  Quitting is the same thing… we really don’t know how it will affect us once we do it.  But the decision of quitting should always be YOUR decision and should never be decided by anybody else.

I have been tried so many times… bashed and forced to the ground countless of times… but I have never quit unless my gut tell me to.  I never quit even if I hear people talk bad about me… I will never quit because of what they say or do to me… I AM A FIGHTER… I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN ONE… AND I WILL ALWAYS BE.

Where I am now is a result of all the heartaches and headaches I have endured over time.  I am proud to be me… and I will not turn back time nor will I regret what I may have done before… because I know those experiences made me a better man.

What if the competent go on strike?

Imagine…

A world where all the competent people go on strike.  A world where the geniuses as well as those with common sense would rather work as a janitor or a bag-man in a supermarket.

A world where incompetent people rule with an iron hand.

If those we look up to suddenly go on strike and we are left with a world full of incompetent people.. where would society be?

Well… think about it.  A country which is ruled by incompetent people would mean lots of holidays.. lots of free time.. and a whole lot of mess.  Society as we know it would crumble and fade away in a matter of years. Oil prices would go up… hunger and strife will prevail.  Society will break down and life as we know it will move to a mere crawl.

If the rational and intelligent people go on strike… then everyone will be at a loss.  Where is our society now?  Think… aren’t we nearing that stage?  It may be impossible that the competent will go on strike.. but it may be possible that the competent will lose their interest in society and leave everything to the incompetent. 

Come to think of it… we are at an age wherein we now rely more on technology rather than rationality.  People would believe more in numbers rather than taking the risk and believing in human intuition.

WE ARE AT AN AGE WHERE THE INCOMPETENT MAY RULE!!

We might think that this is just a phase… that in time, everything will be put in its place and it’ll all return to normal.  Which boils down to one thing… if we are ruled by those who are incompetent, how can we say that it’ll return to normal?  It is a horrific thought indeed…

My first blog entry…

My.. ohh.. my.

I don’t even know why I did this… nor do I even understand the concept of having your own blog. 

I have my friendster account to begin with and whatever thoughts I have, I write it there.  I wouldn’t even care how it looked like.  I may have been a web designer a while back, but there really isn’t any time for me to However, I’ve been pushed, kicked, and forced into creating my own blog… I pushed myself into doing it.  The reason?  I really don’t know… I’m just curious I guess.  Maybe I want my creative juices to flow.  Maybe it’ll help me take out some frustration in this rat-race we call life.

Well.. come to think of it.. even if I would keep on convincing myself that this is boring.. it really isn’t.  I’m not one who shares my thoughts to the world and I’m guessing that “blogging” is a way for me to release at least that tension that’s pent up inside from my being quiet.

It took me an 2 hours… just to set this blog up and it still isn’t finished.  There’s a lot of things that i’d want to put but my head is just a big blank right now.  Maybe in the next few days I’ll be able to fix everything.